Love

People dive into blow holes, jump from a speeding boat to water planes, run miles on end, jump off a cliff and learn how to tango.

For love.

Some people don't.

Sometimes in life and love, you don't get what you want but it doesn't mean you don't deserve them.

We all dream of that one person that'll do anything and everything for you, because of you. And you would be the reason for all that is great in him, and only bring out the best in him.

I'm a hopeless romantic, emotionally high maintenance and fiercely loyal to those who has my trust.

And I know one day, someone will also say to me that famous line from As Good As It Gets, (or something along that line..)

"I might be the only person on the face of the earth that knows you're the greatest woman on earth. I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you pass by and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive.."

This is a new stage in my life. There won't be people jumping off a ship after me nor will there be anyone who would run into a burning building for me. There is no more love. I have to accept that. But, I will always have the type of love that will come to you when you feel all is hopeless, or when you sob yourself over something that hurts so bad.

And for that I'm grateful.

And for that I still believe in love..

-L

What are you ready for?

I am ready for a holiday.

I definitely deserve it. I'm thinking, sun, sand, waves, palm trees, oversized sunglass (done!), large brimmed straw hat (check!). Maybe Pangkor Laut again.. or maybe Langkawi. Ni-mu in tow of course.

Things have been so hectic lately, that this dream of holidaying will have to take a backseat for now. I guess I can still look good with oversized sunglasses and large brimmed straw hat at the apartment's pool ..

I should start looking for a swimsuit.

-so-not-bikini-ready-L

A wish was all it took.

She snores.. and I don't mind it a bit.

She's my sunshine, every little bit of her has me written all over it. The way she articulate herself, her love for japanese food, her expressions.. But what I'm most proud of her is the strength she has. So strong, she keeps me from falling apart.

I wonder if my mom looks at me and feel the same way. Of course we've had our differences, and lately I do feel like I have failed her, and wondered if I have failed my little mini me.

Just as she was falling asleep, she said,"Happy Mother's Day Mum.. I love you..", I knew I have not failed her.. and with that I knew instinctively that when I said "Happy Mother's Day Mummy!", just now over dinner that I have not failed my mom too.

Happy Mothers Day! I am me because of you.

-mummy-L

Good news, bad news

The thing with bad news - good news is, you always have to choose which one you would want to hear first.

Sometimes I wish I don't have to choose between the two. But life's like that, right? In fact, Life's all about the good, the bad and the ugly. So I guess I may as well brace myself for whatever comes next.

So f*^k the bad news..

Am moving forward. Straight to the fridge first..

-L

Not so SUNny Day

Sometimes Sunday can be a not so "sunny" day..

Sometimes it's dark..
Sometimes it rains..
Sometimes you're alone..

Sometimes you're just angry..
Sometimes you're just weepy..
Sometimes ..

Well, sometimes you just can't finish what you started and that makes me mad and sad.

-L

So near yet so far

Jason is coming.. and yours truly have not made any progress in getting the tickets.. Life's been complicated. Not just "needlessly complicated".. really, truly complicated. So many balls in the air, and I know one of them is going to drop very soon.. That's life.

So I am crossing my fingers and toes that I'd be able to get to see Mr. Mraz.. And if I can be so bold.. I'd ask him to hold my heart in his hand... Well, we all know that's not going to happen since it will mean instantaneous death.. and however complicated it is, my life is all I have and I ain't gonna waste it!

-strong-but-needy-L

Yoohoooo Frank!

The tailored black suit.
The sleek black Audi.
The non-chalant fighting skills.
The clean, crisp white shirt.
And the body underneath.

Delicious.

What are the odds of finding a guy called Frank who drives a bad ass Audi here?

Probably none.

There might just be a Frankie, though...

-i-want-to-be-transported-L

Hello '09!

The first day of 2009. Wow. It's finally here. I'm a little embarassed to say this but I bought my '09 planner in October, and was looking forward to jotting down many appointments and schedules.. So far, I only have a trip to Bandung penned in.

I ended '08 grooving to Mama Mia!.. and started '09 in high def.. via Blue Ray, plenty of fireworks, from here to "Klang" (according to Entrepreneurina) thanks to Mr. & Mrs Shell kind invitation. Lunch was surprisingly pleasant and a cosy dinner for three. An email saying my team has hit last year's sales projection.. Positive bank balance (albeit not so healthy..), my "Benefit a.k.a Dr Becky" project still going strong..

So far so good. And now, to fill my cute little planner up.. Lunch, anyone?

-Rah!-Rah!-L